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Saturday, March 04, 2006

i thought of many things after i got home today . him , friends , school , stuffs . particular everything stucked me . i tried to differentiate right from wrong . i thought about whats best for me . i`m not trying to be a bragger here but i kind of believe that i`m much more fortunate then many others . so why am i here pondering about all sorts of stupid problems when i can just move on ? . . . i found myself so corrupted , i bluff my way through life just to forget those torments and agonies .

well . got back my English , Maths and Mother tongue paper today . one word . GREAT DISAPPOINTMENT ! *sigh* well . my english got 61/85 . dun feel sad nor disappoint cause my results for english is always like this . but of coz there`s nothing to be proud of . hehe . i put in so much effort yet my result for mother tongue would turn out like this . i spent my weekends studying for my chinese . infact the only subject which i studied for is only chinese . but why would i still get a mark which is far way my expectation ? . is it due to the difficulity ? no . its not . its just because of my stupidity . i didn get 1st . not even 2nd nor 3rd . infact its 7th ! from a top 3 student drop till top 10 . got 42.5 / 50 . converted to 100 is 85 /100 . highest in class is 93/100 . big difference ! sigh . why ? even people like Yu Hui , Dan Ying , Chin Wee , Jia Mei get higher marks then me . i`m not saying that they are lousy or stupid but is that usually our result for mother tongue is like one heaven and one hell . the difference is really big but this year . they got higher then me . i know you people will be saying that thats because they put in loads of effort and i didn . if you think so i must say you people are totally wrong . i did . if i didn put in any effort why is it that i will be sad over my chinese result . if i didn put in any effort i wun have a target of getting 1st in class and an A* for it . if i didn , i wun be crying over split milk in class when i get back my chinese paper . but its because i did put in loads of effort, thats why i feel disappointed n sad .*sigh* now i then know why my results are so bad . its due to the teacher . i know u people will also be saying that if its because of the teacher why is it that people like yu hui , dan ying . . . etc will get higher then you for their chinese . ok for goodness sake . they went for tuition but i dun . bla .

as for my maths , i really got nothing to say . why ? thats because all the mistake which i made is due to me carelessness . not that i dunno how to solve the question but is that the careless mistakes which i had made . i got 42/50 converted to 100 is 84/100 . *sigh* from an A* to an A . it totally sucks to the core . well . now my only hope is my science . will i get an A* or an A ?

bla . today in class as usual me n ivan was laughing madly at maverick`s nonsense . haha . even mrs so join in the laughter . hehe . so you can see how funny maverick is . well . right after school went to the minimart . as usual . the group of us went to the bus-stop and slack . before dan ying and gladys came , me and xuan was talking then she say :

Zi Xuan: be careful lar . later sya call you .

Jolynn: huh ?!?

Zi Xuan: *laugh* sya know your number .

Jolynn: huh ?!? how he know ?

Zi Xuan: *laugh*

Jolynn : you told him ?

Zi Xuan: ahah . ya .

Jolynn: omg . you . you . you told him or he asked for it ?

Zi Xuan: he asked for it .

Jolynn: so you gave him my handphone number or house number ?

Zi Xuan: house number .

Jolynn: you must well give him my handphone number .

Zi Xuan: lol . i forgotten . is it 9832**** ?

Jolynn: yupp .

Zi Xuan: he know your blog too .

Jolynn: huh!?! *totally stunned* how he know ? you told him too ?

Zi Xuan: *twist* ahha . yupp .

Jolynn: omg you . how he know that i got a blog ? you told him ?

Zi Xuan: i dunno too . nope . i didn told him .

Jolynn: then who told him .

Zi Xuan: dunno `~

*******conversation between xuan n sya .******

Sya: you have Jolynn`s number ?

Zi Xuan: ya . why leh ?

Sya: just give me .

*****sya gave zi xuan his handbook to write my number on it****

after writing . . . .

Sya: what about her blog ?

Zi Xuan: how you know that she has a blog ?

Sya: why must i tell you ?

Zi Xuan: -.- . ok then .

*****then xuan wrote my blog add in his handbook too . ****

when me n xuan was talking , sya walk past me then zi xuan at there `` whoa whoa .`` -.- then sya went to the minimart . after awhile he came then just nice the bus came so he went to board the bus . when he was walking to the bus , zi xuan shouted `` syakirin !`` lol . he heard it but he didn turn back nor respond . ahah . too embarrass to do so .when we are talking , adam n hafiq came then adam never fail to say `` syakirin lehh?`` -.- then i told him he went home already but he dun believe me . lol . its true ok . he board the bus home already . bleahs .

ok . thats all for today . i really dun have the mood to continue posting . shall not say what the group of us did nor say . hehes . take care guys .

For my sisters , brothers , friends and mummy . especially him . well . if you guys get good results for your exams i conglates u guys . worker harder ok . get better results during the next exam then this one . ! but if you guys get a result that you`r not satisfied with or not good , ; like me . nvm . we will work harder okiiex ? make sure that we will get a satisfised and good result for our next exam ! lets work hard together guys . hehes . i love you people ! you people never fail to brighten up my day .

- love me like you once love me before . -

- are your feelings with me or is it with someone else ? -

last but not least . . .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ER JIE .! ! !

wahh . finally you`r 18 . a grown up pretty lady now . ahha . stay pretty and ``bimbo`` always !

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